GIRLS!!

TWO GIRLS!!!

Hurray! We are so, so excited! During the ultrasound I cried right off the bat. I was simply overjoyed at seeing our babies this big, this far along. Amazed and grateful we are here. Then, finding out there was a girl in there, made me cry tears of joy all over again.

We were sort of hoping for the opportunity to get to raise a boy and a girl but the more we settle into “sisters” the more it feels right and makes sense. Though the look on Gina’s face when we learned the second baby was a girl too was priceless. Maybe even more shock than learning we had twins! As for me, the more I think about this strong lineage of women I come from, the more two girls seems obvious. 🙂

We ARE telling people the sex of the babies so feel free to spread the good news!

Feeling so GOOD!
In health news, I am STILL feeling so much better. It’s been more than a week now and I feel strong and certain that it’s smooth sailing from here on out.

I can feel the babies move now, too, which is so incredible I can hardly describe the feeling. It’s alien, foreign, miraculous, fun… just awesome. Gina can’t feel them move yet but she can feel them in there when they are more on the surface. Her face lights up every time I put her hand on a baby.

I’m swelling up enough now that I had to take my wedding ring off. This is a bit sad for me cuz I haven’t taken it off in 5 years (anniversary this weekend, July 10!) but, it’s all in service of something greater, so, on we go.

Life Back on The Farm
Gina and I took a little drive out to the woods this past weekend– we totally unplugged; hiked, read, talked. Then we went to the Blues Festival on the Fourth of July- something we really love doing every year. It was a much needed weekend of feeling back to myself, ourselves, happy and in love… all with the added bonus of being pregnant with two DAUGHTERS!

My Restoring Power Summer Retreat is coming this weekend and I’m totally looking forward to it. Gina will be there to support me as will a yoga person I’ve hired (who also happens to be a dear friend). In a nutshell, I’ve got lots of good support, the weather will be divine and this will be the last retreat for a while making me feel even more blissed out about it all.

Follow-Up
As for follow-up on my last post, specifically regarding Mary, my god-mother, well, I called her and we talked. We spoke for about an hour and over that period of time I simply became more and more saddened. In over a decade nothing has changed. In fact, maybe things are worse. I’ll spare you all her personal details because, well, they are hers… but suffice to say, it’s not going to work for me to stay in relationship with her.While I feel really sad for her (because my heart remains open) there is a victory in here for me. That is, I don’t feel obligated, obliged or any desire to enable her. None. I feel the desire to send her love and compassion from here. Kerry was right. I’m all grown up now and I know how to set my boundaries. Not only do I know how in my mind, like a skill, but all the personal development work I’ve committed my life to is paying off as this actually feels embodied. A no brainer with no struggle. From 20, 10 even 5 years ago, this is a victory, indeed.

And so… summer goes on. It’s finally warm here in Portland (after the worst winter/spring anyone I know can recall)…and it’s gorgeous! Now we are getting on with the full-time job of prepping for our two baby girls: picking out names (which we will keep private until they are here), picking out room color, twin baby gear, pregnancy/birth/multiples classes and all that other good stuff that we’ve dreamt of for years.

Without further adieu, here are some pics from the last week.